[Haruchunja] From Today, I Decided to Cry for Myself <1>

Editor's NoteThis week's book introduced to the readers of the 'One Day Ten Thousand Steps, One Day One Thousand Characters' newsletter is the new release by psychotherapist Park Seongman, From Today, I Decided to Cry for Myself. This book analyzes and guides the resolution of emotions and issues commonly experienced by middle-aged women standing at life's turning points through psychology. Focusing on the inner archetypes and the deficient self, it allows readers to confront the 'lost self within.' Drawing on extensive experience with numerous clients, the author presents various questions and answers as if in actual counseling, vividly reflecting their lives. We hope that through this book, readers will meet their curled-up inner emotions and begin a life true to themselves. Word count: 896 characters.

Withdraw the energy you have directed toward others and turn it inward to yourself. With the remaining energy, meet the 'inner turmoil' within you and the 'sorrow you couldn't fully grieve' from your childhood. Confront the anger from your childhood when you suppressed your desires to fulfill the role of a mother. You must feel the resentment and anger with the thought, 'Why do I have to become a mother?' which you didn't understand back then. You may even hate your father and younger siblings, who were the recipients of your care. For a moment, you need to face these uncomfortable emotions. You must understand that good emotions also arise from uncomfortable feelings, just as hatred and love are one.

The time has come. If you do not stand on your own now, your future life will become compulsive or depressive. Anyone who withdraws mental energy from the outside and turns it inward is a practitioner. Everyone in middle age must become a practitioner. The archetype deep in the unconscious guides their life toward the path of a practitioner. That is why Carl Jung said to listen to the inner voice. Before meeting the fulfilled self within, stop external good deeds. Repressed inner turmoil is released as unfamiliar emotions, and that space is filled with calm peace. The horizon of consciousness expands. Only then can you become a good person capable of self-regulation and a mother of the world. At that time, actions come from a calling, not from reward.

If you listen to your inner voice, you can know what you truly want to do. People ask, "I can't hear my inner voice. How can I hear it?" The person who asked that question must make an effort. "Pause external matters for a while and immerse yourself a little more inwardly. Even for 30 minutes a day. Courage to follow that voice is enough." If you first have the desire to live as your true self, you will learn that the 'how' will be given accordingly.

- Park Seongman, From Today, I Decided to Cry for Myself, Chusubat, 17,000 KRW