'Former AOA Member' Kwon Mina "Bullied During Activities... Dragged into Closet"

Singer Kwon Mina, former member of idol group AOA. Photo by Yonhap News

[Asia Economy Intern Reporter Kim Seul-gi] Kwon Mina (27), a singer and former member of the idol group AOA, claimed that she was bullied during her activities.

On the 3rd, Kwon Mina said in a post on her Instagram, "After my dad passed away, I cried once in the waiting room, and an older sister dragged me to the waiting room closet saying that I was ruining the atmosphere because of me and told me not to cry, so I said I was really scared."

Kwon Mina added, "Thinking that my dad was about to die... I still can't forget that day. Other bullying? Other insults? It's all okay. It's a wound, but because we rode the same car, later I took tranquilizers and sleeping pills and just put myself to sleep," and said, "I should have been doing my schedule properly, but I felt like I was gradually falling apart. Because of that older sister, I even attempted an extreme choice."

She continued, "And it's okay if people don't recognize me as an idol or an actress. I'm very lacking. But I was so happy while doing it and really worked hard. Honestly, I really didn't want to leave AOA, but because of one person who hated me, I was bullied for 10 years and endured it, and honestly, in the end, I was so overwhelmed that I wanted to curse at least once."

She went on, "In the end, I gave up on AOA too. But recently, that older sister's father passed away. My heart hurt so much and I felt strange. When I went to the funeral hall, she cried and apologized as soon as she saw me," and said, "I felt empty and collapsed. Resentment disappeared and everything became okay, but I was too broken," adding, "Honestly, I'm exhausted. Like what people say on the internet, I don't even know who I am or what kind of person I am."

Kwon Mina confessed, "I didn't even want to be born. I have a mouth and hands, but now I can't even control myself. I live because of my mom. It's okay if you don't see me nicely or don't pay attention. Can't you just leave me alone?"

Earlier, Kwon Mina did not renew her contract with her agency FNC Entertainment in May 2019 and left AOA.

Below is the full text of Kwon Mina's Instagram post

I really want to disappear so badly, but I have to take care of my mom... Ah, I know many will say I'm brainless again. Yes, I am brainless and haven't properly learned anything because I had to earn money from a young age due to family circumstances. After my dad passed away, I cried once in the waiting room, and an older sister dragged me to the waiting room closet saying I was ruining the atmosphere and told me not to cry, so I said I was really scared.

Thinking that my dad was about to die, I still can't forget those words. Other bullying? Other insults? It's all okay. It's a wound, but because we rode the same car, later I took tranquilizers and sleeping pills and just put myself to sleep. I should have been doing my schedule properly, but I felt like I was gradually falling apart.

And it's okay if people don't recognize me as an idol or actress. I'm really bad and very lacking. But I was so happy while doing it and really worked hard. It's a job I truly love. I never felt stressed because of work. Honestly, I really didn't want to leave AOA, but because of one person who hated me, I was bullied for 10 years and endured it, and honestly, in the end, I was so overwhelmed that I wanted to curse at least once... In the end, I gave up on AOA too.

I was the one who enjoyed activities with other members, but recently that older sister's father passed away. My heart hurt so much and I felt strange. I know that pain at least... When I went to the funeral hall, she cried and apologized as soon as she saw me. I felt empty and collapsed. My heart... Just emptied. Resentment disappeared and everything became okay, but I was too broken.

I'm scared of the hiatus... Of course, I expected it. I thought I could learn this and that or get treatment for depression, panic disorder, and anxiety. But even during the hiatus, many things happened... Honestly, I'm exhausted. Yes, like those netizens? Like what people say on the internet, I don't even know who I am or what kind of person I am. I hate seeing myself, it's noisy and unpleasant to hear, but I didn't want to be born either. I have a mouth and hands, but now I can't control myself. I live because of my mom. I have to live... It's okay if you don't see me nicely or don't pay attention, so just a little... Can't you just leave me alone? Because I did everything wrong.

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